Tough

I have come to the end of the month.  I wanted to blog every day.  I didn't.  Still I'm really pleased I was able to write as often as I did.  It didn't turn out to be a way to establish my business, which was the inspiration for the daily post goal.  But writing here has been insightful and helpful.  I have gotten no comments and I'm ok about that.  This has gotten me over the thought that only with feedback can my words be validated.  I have written for myself.

Still I have accomplished some business related things: 

I have set up and sold at the flea market 8 times.

I have sold 205 things, that's 205 items out of my studio.

I have made $853, which is way more than I would have made if I spent the time watching netflix!

I discovered a women's group of small business owners, including some artists.  I have connected with a coach.  I have signed up for a retreat to allow me to walk into my dreams.

I haven't made any art.  I haven't wholeheartedly committed to my relationship.  I know the only thing needed to do both is to forgive with my whole heart.  It wasn't an easy thing to discover.  I find it is not an easy thing for me to do.  I am still resisting.  I have a sneaking suspicion that I am the one getting hurt the most.  But I'm not giving up on myself or my goal -- to be creative and happy.  I am just going to have to keep going.